I exist in this world to drink milk, not to count cows.

In this new world where reality is an afterthought and the internet is the “new and improved” existence of comparison, unhealthy competition, and ridicule, it is important to note that I understand and respect the times for what they are. With that said, that doesn’t mean I have to participate.

I am of the uncommon philosophy that competition with another human in this life isn’t worth it on any level — even when it feels like it is in the moment. For me, personally and individually, competition occurs within my mind and my body in terms of fitness. That internal competition and entertainment consume most of my energy. Therefore, it’s not that I’m exempt from being competitive with others. Rather, it is that I seem to heavily favor competition with myself over any other form of competition.

This natural capacity for self-competition has existed in me since I remember remembering. It has been a consistent theme from my childhood to the present day. It’s been so consistent that it’s made me abnormally and inaccurately unaware of my triumphs and small notable accomplishments over the years. I’m so used to fine-tunning that I neglected/negated staying tuned, which is unbalanced. This makes sense to me because of my hard and fast nature.